layout blog aku ni sejak 2004 tak tuko², so mintak maaf la.. aku malas lg nak layan coding sume.. sabo je la ye.. :P

hangin satu bodi. damn! f***! a******! bloody fool!

dulik ar org ckp aku kurang hajo. aku da lame sabar tau tak mangkuk!!! bodoh! bodoh! bodoh!

gosh... marahnye aku ari nih.. pahala puase da ke mane.. ya Allah.. naper la makhluk bodoh centu yg Kau ketemukan ngan aku?? why?? astaghfirullah.......... tarik napas panjang²... tarik lagi... lagi....

sob..

da lame makan ati. da lame aku diamkan je. butakan mate. pekakkan telinga. tarik muke manis. senyum lagi daye senyum. bleh lagi dia nak burukkan aku. lemah nye jiwa aku. lemah nye hati aku. aku da cuba sabar. abaikan. let it be. i know the the truth is in here. tp kalah jugak aku ngan perasaan marah. ape yg perlu aku buat lagi? aku abaikan, negatif yg dia lemparkan. aku layan, still negatif yg aku dpt.. nak camane lagi??

let him talk? let it be?? sampai bile? biar je mcm org bodoh xde daya nak defence diri sendiri? biar jek dia jaja name aku? burukkan aku? cari kesalahan aku? biar je sekecik² kesalahan aku dia hebohkan? biar je dia tikam aku centu? mane hak aku?? kat mane letak otak dia? xpuas² lg nyusahkan idup aku? dia nak sampai aku brenti keje, sampai aku merempat, sampai aku gile?? baru nak puas ati???

sob..

mengucap madah.. mengucap! Tuhan maha agung. ko tau tu kan? ko sedar kan?? hurm... may be better to let him talk. let him be. bior je. ko kan slalu kate, "the truth is in here.. deep in your heart. u know u are right..". x kan kemane org mcm tu. x kan bahagia nye dia kalo terus wat centu kat org lain. Tuhan kan ade. setiap yg salah ade balasan nye, centu jugak yg baik... astaghfirullah... :(~

rase macam nak lari ke hujung dunia... :(~


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any moment everythin can change
feel the wind on your shoulder
for a minute, all the world can wait
let go of yesterday

can you hear it calling?
can you feel it in your soul?
can you trust this longing?
and take control..

fly.. open up the part of you that wants to hide away
you can shine, forget about the reasons why you cant in life
and start to try, cause it's your time.. time to fly

all your worries, leave them somewhere else
find a dream you can follow
reach for something, when there's nothing left
and the world's feeling hollow

and when you're down and feel alone
just want to run away
trust yourself and don't give up
you know you better than anyone else

any moment, everything can change
feel the wind on your shoulder
or a minute, all the world can wait
let go of yesterday
fly.. open up the part of you that wants to hide away
you can shine, forget about the reasons why you cant in life
and start to try, forget about the reasons why you can't in life
and start to try, cause it's your time.. time to fly

F.L.Y - Hilary Duff


a very nice songs. brighten up my spirit.

any moment, everything can change...