layout blog aku ni sejak 2004 tak tuko², so mintak maaf la.. aku malas lg nak layan coding sume.. sabo je la ye.. :P

dah start keje balik ari nih.

smlm balik dr kg. sampai je umah, housemate ade 4 org; su, kasma, ayu&ati (twin). si twin ari tu gadoh pasal duit aku hilang ari tuh. mcm² la alasan bebudak tu, mmg x ngaku jugak. lantok korang la. masalahnye, da melibatkan semua yg lain yg x terlibat tuh. su ngan kasma x tego aku langsung. aya smlm blom balik. kami serumah 6 org. so smlm aku mcm bodoh la dlm umah tu. mcm org asing, dipulaukan.

x tau nak pikir ape. let it be. ape nak jadi, jadi lah. i wont move out of that house. ape ingat aku x leh survive duk sengsorang cam tunggul lam umah tu? sblom ni pon, aku sengsorang gak. ape masalah aku, aku hadapi sorang². life would never be easy. that's how it goes, hard. so, face it lah. dont have to runaway.

ape pon, aku rase sedih gak. jadi macam aku plak yg bersalah. ape² lah!

we cant change what people think of us. like someone said to me today; we are the painter of our own painting. we lead our way, our own path.

his name is meor, he visited this blog and said that i live in darkness. well, yeah.. sometimes i feel i'm livin in darkness. like i'm facing a dead end. nowhere to go. lost. feel like i've missed something.

livin in this world means to face other people. and they are not just 'people', they could be the intruder, impostor. we cant change the way they want to be. kite xleh ubah org lain.

i dont think i'm the only painter of my own painting.



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found myself today
oh I found myself and ran away
something pulled me back
the voice of reason I forgot I had
all I know is just you're not here to say
what you always used to say
but it's written in the sky tonight

so I won't give up
no I won't break down
sooner than it seems life turns around
and I will be strong
even if it all goes wrong
when I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
someone's watching over me

seen that ray of light
and it's shining on my destiny
shining all the time
and I wont be afraid
to follow everywhere it's taking me
all I know is yesterday is gone
and right now I belong
took this moment to my dreams

it doesn't matter what people say
and it doesn't matter how long it takes
believe in yourself and you'll fly high
and it only matters how true you are
be true to yourself and follow your heart

Hilary Duff - Someone's watching over me