It’s a very nice day. Yesterday, balik kampung, Kg. Kesom. Met my grandma, Tok. She looked very old and tired. Bile ingat2 balik mase kicik-kicik dolu, rase nyesal. Since I was a little child, my grandma and I always disagree with each other. Ade2 je mende nak fight, nak gadoh. Tok suke sangat bebel panjang2 sampai bingit aku rase telinga ni. Kire aku ni cucu yg degil lagi kepala batu dan kurang disayangi la..
Now she’s older and looked torn all over. Rase cam nak nangis pon ade. Naper dulu kitorang slalu gado ek? Hish.. mmg cucu yg derhaka.. Aku balik kampung, Tok sibuk nak kasi aku makan itu ini. Habis semua biskut kering, buah mempelam, rambutan, pisang yang dia simpan dia kuarkan nak kasi aku. Cold fried chicken pon ade! Terharunyeee…. :’) Sayang nye aku kat dia… what if one day she’s gone? Waaa waa! No! no!
Pastu, this morning. I woke up early so that I can catch a cab to town. Promised my boss to meet him for a meeting with a client in Awana. So, while in hurry I don’t get the chance to salam with Tok. Usually, sebelum balik aku salam lu ngan Tok. Pastu Tok slalu kasi duit skit. Kate dia, “nah, ambik buat minum teh tengah jalan nanti”. Today, no pocket money from Tok…
I dunno.. I’m afraid… I’m afraid if one day I go back to kampung, Tok is not there to welcome me home. Da x de nak sambut aku… da xde nak kepoh-kepoh nak jamu aku.. nak bebel2 aku sbb aku malas, suke bangun lambat, and suke kacau adik2 sampai dorang nangis.. what if..? no, I cant imagine… I love u, tok.. :’( I love u so much.
i start my day brightly. pahtu.. i end my day emotionally. huh! mahu x bengang?? ade la akak ni name dia kak ita. ape punye manusia pon tatau la. xpernah seumur hidup aku jumpe org camtu. hati masam! kuku besi! kaki busuk!
ade ke patot? aku tompang kwn dia yg naik kete company, dia soh bayo RM100 sebulan??! bullshit. ingat ape? aku nak teksi ari2 pon xde centu. dengki! eiiii.. marahnye.....! da tu dia nak ungkit aku mkn ari2 boss tanggung! al-kisah, my boss is a very kind-hearted man. dia ni baik la sgt ngan kak ita yg kuku besi ni. disebabkan aku skang staff baru, perhatian boss aku tu byk kek aku la skarang. lagipun 1st month keje aku xde gaji lagi. slalu mkn ngan boss aku ni la. dia baik ngan aku pon sbb aku ni kenal ngan anak dia, kak mona.
so kak ita ni dengki. ade ke patot, dia kol ofis mintak ckp ngan boss aku pehtu dia soh boss aku tinggal aku kek ofis ngan duit RM5 buat lunch. x kasi bawak aku lunch skali. huh!! ingat ape? aku ni kebulur sgt nak mkn duit dia ke?? ingat aku x de mak bapak ke? dia buat aku rase marah sgt2!! hish.. ikut hati aku td.. ringan je mulut aku nak lancar laser. camsial!
ari ni punye kisah plak.. boss aku da x tahan tinger dengo dia bebel, dihulurnya duit RM50. dia soh aku belakon konon ari ni aku belanja lunch untuk semua org!! why?? sbb nak jagi hati si kuku busuk tu?? go to hell! aaarrggghhhh!!! marahnye!!!!! aku rase camdoh! mmg aku camdoh! hish.. i dont want to have anything with them emimor! ape ingat aku xleh survive ke? takat bandar kemaman ni xmati kebulur laaaa!!!! bangang punye org.
huhuhu... sampai ati kak ita?? aku xde dosa ngan dia pon. jumpe pon baru 2-3 kali. apsal nak buat musuh plak? sedey nye.... :'( waaaaa...!!! nak balik rumah skarang jugakkk!! waa waaaa!!~
huhuhuhu... after a few days exploring this blogger, i've made few changes. tu pon kepala da pening. name je IT student tp habuk pon tarak.. hehehe :-p i hate codings. that's why i dont get a good result in college. no wonder huh...
i put the shoutbox and edit some part of the sidebar. i put the shoutbox even i know already no one will review my blog. haha.. who cares?
now i have to find out how to put images on this page.. hurm.. oh i hate codings.... but somehow, this thing is quite fun!
Back to work. In Terengganu, Sunday is a working day. As usual, nuttin much to do. Answering incomin phone calls, n other daily routines.
Called my boyfriend. Now he's in JB. 1030. Dia baru bangun tido. He’s not workin today. Wah.. Suare seksi siut.. hihi.. I miss him so damn much. I wonder wat's he doin rite now. Havin his breakfast+lunch? Or baru terhegeh2 nak gi gosok gigi? Eeii busuk laa bi nih! Then wat's he goin to do to spend his weekend? I dont want to think much further, I wish he's here now, I wish I can see him everyday, I wish he's nearer to me. But we r not.. :(
Da x de keje sgt aku masuk YM Chat. Arghh.. Bosan. All of them r the same. Liar. Fake. Got to know few guys, then they start to talk bout sex. Damn. Wat r they thinking? Dorang ni x de mende lain dah ke nak pikir? Why r guy's thought always about sex. I knew, it is normal but sometimes it seems abnormal. Isn’t it? I don’t know a damn thing about guys..
Out of words again…….
Feeling bored drew me to surf and surf and surf. Till I found this Blogger. Wat is this thing? I guess I’ll figure it out myself since I got nuttin else to do. Duh!
This is my 2nd week working at a new place, new boss, new environment, new home, new small town-Chukai, Kemaman and all new things. Aarrrghh.. tension! Got no frens, no one to talk to! Dammit. I’m all alone here..
But I admit that may be I’ll get a better chance here even till now I still don’t see how can I improve my performance since there is nobody I can compete with. My previous boss at Cheras was so damn ‘bakhil’ and that place is even worse than here.
This is the story of a girl. Who cried a river and drowned the whole world. And while she looked so sad in photographs, I absolutely love her.. when she smiles..
How many days in the year she woke up with hope. But she only found tears. And I can be so insincere. Making her promises never for real. As long as she stands there waiting. Wearing the holes in soles of her shoes.
How many days disapear. You look in the mirror so how do you choose. And your clothes never wear as well the next day. And your hair never falls in quite the same way. You never seem to run out of things to say.
How many lovers would stay. Just to put up with this shit day after day. How do we wind up this way. Watchin' the mouths for the words I would say. As long as we stand here waiting. Wearing the clothes of the soles I would chose.
How do we get there today. If we're walkin' to far from the price of the shoes.. When she smiles.....